Defining Our Terms

Prurient — adjective
1. having, inclined to have, or characterized by lascivious or lustful thoughts, desires, etc.
2. causing lasciviousness or lust.
3. having a restless desire or longing.

I decided to start this blog because I've never felt comfortable with this side of myself, despite what a major portion of my personality it is. What is "it"? It's desire. It's lust. It's my sexuality.

I've always been made to feel bad about my sexual behavior and proclivities. Some of that comes from external sources -- but a lot of it is just internal.

Here's my "declaration of principles" for this blog: I will not censor myself. I will be completely honest about everything no matter how inconsistent I may appear or how hypocritical I may sound. I also will try my best to not give a rat's ass if anyone is reading this or not. I often feel like I'm yelling into a void so why should I want or think I'll get feedback here? I often think of that line from TAXI DRIVER about Travis Bickle being "God's Lonely Man." That's how I feel.

This is the place where I'm going to share my fantasies, desires, and thoughts no matter how dark or scary (to myself) they may be. Feel free to be a voyeur as I break down.